Jesus replied, "You do not understand what I am doing now, but someday you will."
John 13:7.
April 4, 2017.
I was going through my phone cleaning out my notes because random notes like "milk" or "clean room" were just taking up space...but also reminding me to clean my room ;) I came across this note that was created on a Tuesday in April at 6:12 pm. What in the world was I doing at 6:12 pm on a Tuesday that made me right that note down? I don't know but today I found it and I would like to think there is a reason for that! God knew I would see this note today and it would provide encouragement to me in this crazy time.
Jesus replied, "You do not understand what I am doing now, but someday you will."
John 13:7
You are right, Jesus. I do not understand what you are doing now! I am excited for the day I will understand, though. I kind of wonder if I am partly understanding. I wonder if I am slightly understanding the whole divorce thing and what God is doing.
Like I have shared before, I went to church and prayed at dinner...but that is pretty much it. I wasn't close with God. So now, after being close with Him because of my divorce, I am wondering if that is part of the reason. Is that weird? Yeahhhh. It is weird for me to think of it that way.
Does anyone understand what God is doing now? Can anyone explain divorce in our world? Why is it even a thing? I sure do not understand that part. Why would God put me through this? Why would God put my ex-husband through this? I mean gosh dang it, this isn't fun you guys!!
I sure do not understand all of what Jesus is doing, but I wonder if I see a little bit of what He is doing? What if I have been suffering because God wants me to be closer to Him? I mean I can't imagine God wanting me to be far from Him! If I am far from Him, how does He draw me closer? My life was pretty great without Him and by that I mean I THOUGHT my life was great without spending time with Him.
Jesus, I do not understand the point of getting married and then divorce a few months later...but I am thankful that I am close with You. I am not thankful that I got a divorce because that sucked. And it hurt! But it happened. We got divorced. What now? Well, now, I am choosing to live my life for God and live my life loving God.
I don't fully know or understand what God is doing, but I think I have a little bit of an idea. Follow me on my journey as I continue to draw closer to Him! It is pretty radical. Not always easy, days are hard! But as Jesus said, someday I will understand what He is doing. And that gives me hope.
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xoxo,
Morgan Leigh
craaaazzzzyyyy that over two years ago I wrote this down and now it is SO relevant to me now!!

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