This is the question I literally get everyyyyy day. People ask how I am doing and I say I’m okay. And they say, “wait what? You’re okay? Are you sure?”
Uhmm. Hmmm. Yes. Yes, I’m sure! Let me clarify. I’m okay with the situation at hand. I can’t control it, I didn’t ask for it, and it’s not what I wanted. But I’m okay. I am choosing to be okay after my husband did leave me.
Some people have said “Morgan but how are you okay? You were with him for like 3.5 years right?” Yes, you’re correct! We were together for quite a while. I feel like I say it all the time. I’m. Okay.
Days are hard. PLEASE HEAR ME!! Days are hard. Some days suck. Sometimes I cry. Sometimes I’m sad. Sometimes I really miss my ex-husband. But I’m okay.
A few weeks ago, a precious friend said, “How are you doing? I’m asking that as sincerely as possible because you’re making all of this look easy”. I immediately felt bad and haven’t been able to not think about this conversation. I don’t want to make it appear like this is easy because by golly IT AIN’T EASY!
I have wanted to be very open and honest in my blogs. I don’t want to do the whole “look at me and my Instagram-perfect life!” because that definitely ain’t me. I feel like there is a fine line between “here is all of my issues” and “I’m perfect, life is perfect & I have no problems” on Instagram.
I’m here to tell you my journey has been hard. Very hard. In a nutshell, I was my with very best friend for a little over 3 years and we got married and moved to a new town and two months later he said he was leaving and then another crazy two months later the divorce was finalized. THAT’S A LOT. AND IT SUCKS.
It’s not easy. BUT it’s not impossible. I was reading Matthew 19 where the heading says, “Jesus Talks About Divorce”. Oh boy, this is applicable! I kept reading. Great chapter here that we are blessed with, and then get down to verse 25. It is talking about who can be saved and then verse 26 where Jesus said that with God, all things are possible.
YES SIR THEY ARE. Absolutely they are. I share this verse because I’m really trying to keep this in my mind a lot. Yeah, my husband left and yes it sucks but geez I do not want to let this disaster ruin my life!! I am CHOOSING to be okay. I am reminding myself that with God, all things are possible. So why not make it possible to be okay even when life stinks and things don’t go your way?!
At times it does seem impossible that I’ll be okay after he left. But I have found it helpful to say to myself, “Morgan you’re okay because God is with you. God is protecting you from things you don’t even know. God is watching over you. It’s all going to be okay. Just you wait!” All so true.
I’m sharing this to say, friends. Please don’t see me as just dancing all around and being happy all the time and walking through life with no problems. Because that’s far from accurate. I have struggles every day but I also find so much joy in every single day!
Here is a photo of me the day my husband said he was leaving. I was a WRECK you guys!! I had no clue what to do with myself so I went to get a pedicure. Let’s relax obviously. Gah. This day was absolutely awful.
I share this extremely unflattering image to share that I wasn’t okay. I literally was crying so much I kept my sunglasses on inside. #embarassing. My close friends and family were messaging me constantly all day (v thankful for that) and I got to the point of not talking so I took this selfie and responded to their “how are you?” with “bad.” Sorry for the bad attitude that day everybody. Yikes.
Long story short I’m okay. The fact that my husband left me hurts a lot but I refuse to let that take over and ruin my life. I have rough days but I have way more good days than bad...I count that as a win and owe it truly all to my loving loving God. He seriously has changed my life, friends.
Let me pray for you! Drop a prayer request in the box on my home page. I am so blessed by the people I get to pray for. Some fun blogs on those precious souls to come soon!
xoxo,
Morgan Leigh
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